Yesterday, a small victory

I had a rough beginning to yesterday.  As we prepare for our move to West Virginia, I keep seeing all that I am failing at, how the house needs so much work.  How can I begin to pack when I can barely keep the toilet clean, and towels put away.  Yesterday I could not find my keys anywhere, I was feeling like such a bad mother, what kind of person can't get their kid to school because they can't find their keys.  I lost it, the stress of everything, I was a sobbing utter mess.  I was bawling, out of control!  When I get like this, it ruins me for the day, my emotions get so out of hand that it literally takes me sleeping that night to flush the emotions from my body.  Usually when this happens, I turn to food.  I find the worst thing  I can eat in the house, or go clean off a store shelf and I eat all of it.  This does nothing for me except make me feel more guilty and frustrated.  Yesterday, was different, I didn't binge!  I ate in a fairly healthy way, instead of eating junk, when Scott came home I spent some time talking to him and praying with him.  Then spent some time alone.  

Today, my emotions are still very close to the surface, this realization that I need to be totally changing my focus, and the emotions that go long with it are close.  But that is good, it is God spurring me to change and grow, to glorify him!  A small victory in a long battle!  Lord please help me to remember you in the day to day struggle, be at the forefront of my mind!